I havent posted much lately. I guess I have been caught up in life and family. The brain fog has been insane, my memory is a bit shocking so I have struggled with that.
Yesterday marks the 5th treatment in my chemo cycle and also means I now have one chemo left before then end of this round. I will continue to have Avastin for a year so it's not "over" but the chemo part will be after November 🤗
Since my 4 th chemo in Ocotober, I have been quite sick. I have had some side affects that have meant I cant get out of bed for a couple of days, then I come right again and if you know me, you know I dont like to be slowed down! I have struggled mentally with the loss of energy, and health and having to realize that my priority is having to rest when I can and say No to more things than I would like to but it just is what it is. In the past I would push through fatigue and feeling run down. If I do that now (like i did on my good days during the last cycle) I will get sick, no two ways about it. I just cant do that for now.
I always think it could be worse and I have to be looking at the light at the end of the tunnel, for me, that's November 23rd my last chemo cycle!
I am very much looking forward to being able to have energy for my kids and husband, saying Yes to more catch ups with friends and gaining health again.
The past year has been made easier from friends and family, we have never relied so heavily on our small community before and it really is humbling and gives you a lot of perspective. Iv learnt to ask for help (most of the time).
We as humans are always stronger than we know.
As always, I try to stay positive and informative on this page. The last month hasn't been a box of cadbury roses, but I always remind myself that these are moments, and they pass.
Ill sign off with something Iv heard before and that I can appreciate now more than ever, You grow from what you go through. Get it?
Remember to appreciate your life and loved ones,
Ruby X
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